"forget me nots....and second thoughts live in isolation... heads or tails.... fairy tales in my mind.... Are we we are...are we we are the waiting unknown... Rage and love... the story of my life... the jesus of suberbia.... is a lie..."
Time seems so long ago now. Maybey part of it is the 4 hours a sleep a night I'm getting due to having a major paper due every day all the while reading more and more. Maybey its a new home. Breaking everything in getting settled more and more. It could even be the sudden realization there only about 5 weeks left in my semester. My mind is full of regional history and political structure and for the first time, my studies are so engaging I'm wraping myself up completly in them and learning and living and understanding fully. I thank whatever higher power.. for giving me so much new and interesting information, so that i can focus all my efforts on this, and not be alone in my thoughts. Life can change in a year, a day, an hour, a minuet, or even a second. Knowing that I can put my foot forward knowing no matter what I'm still here, and everything turns out all right in the end. That's how it's always been, that's how it will always be. The future holds too many possiabilities, and its time i take what I can from that, and move forward. I have the world in front of me and my memories behind me. However... in the present I have a bad wisdom tooth that needs to be pulled, a 12 page paper that needs to be turned in in 8 hours, and a formal to go to on friday night. Life is long. Life is good :) -Marteney |