The biggest person I'll ever be at war with over any and every single issue, is myself. Maybey it was the fact I'm too immature or just not paitient enough. Maybey I get fed up with fighting every other day, and wasn't willing to go through it all to figure it. Maybey its just the fact my body is in too poor a condition to fight the stresst of so many battles that are so far away. Maybey I am to concintrated in my studies, and I do put it all first Maybey it was distince, and the inability to touch and feel and express what I held. Maybey it was fear in knowing in the coming time i would have to devote less and less atention to the spicifics, and be further drawn away. Maybey it was the right people at the wrong time... Maybey it wasn't my time... One million maybeys float through my head as i made one of the most diffacult descions of my entire life. We takes steps in life toward self realazation I think. Sometimes these steps are the right moves, but can hurt so much. But all I wish is the steps i take would only hurt me, and no one else. Knowing my footsteps cause others pain, is what truely hurts the most. A million maybeys and a million doubts. But one thing was and is for certin. Love was never a maybey. -Marteney |