Yes the surgury went all right, sept I've been laid up a bit more than I've wanted to be, and stuck in the house for two days.

I am currently "walking" and if you saw the Planet of the Apes remake... I'm walking like some of the apes. And if I take off my shirt I look like a couple of them too.

I spent the night down on he couch....really unable to move at all. And after watching way too much of the tour de France and more Sex in the City then any man at my age should, my eyes and thoughts began to wander around the empty room. I found myself staring out the windows and at the stars, catching a quick glimpse of a star crossing the sky and fading into the darkness. A huge, passionte flicker in a universie of darkness, leaving almost as quickly as it came.

The night sky is a strange creature. Blanketing the entire world in it's cold calming ways, and leaving the largest painting for one to imagine. Memories connected of times gone past. A stage with players shinning brighter than the others. The same sky I looked at when I made my descions... where to go, what to become, and what I had to leave.

To love someone... is to be able to let them go when you know you have to. To let them find their footing, to give them the freedome and oppurtunity to face life in the here and the now. And not focus on someone 450 miles away. To know they are in your heart, an dyou and theres, and to hope, they take the good they found in themselves and share it with the world.

A friend told me the other day.... "I don't know if you're incredably stupid.... or incrediably noble."

All I can think is, I hope it's the later, but I feel like the former.

-Marteney