What a ride it's been... to say the least.

For the first time ever I realized life is slowing down... before it's going to speed up. The count down is at 8. 8 classes left on my monday weds classes... 4 for my night classes. In two weeks... I'll be putting in... my two weeks. Then summer... a glorious summer of being a bum, no job, no school, just long good byes, a little moving, and a LOT of Dodger games.

What a rush... the drama, the pain, the loss, the wins, the happiness, the joy, the embaresment, and the friendships. These times, are forever a a golden memory.

When I graduated high school, I remeber saying, "These were my last steps of childhood, and the next few years would be my first steps towards adulthood." The diary entry I wrote back then ended with, "Overall, I'm happy it's over, but there's a lot I'll miss"

I think it's safe to say more interesting things happind in the last three years then all of high school and middle school combined. There was the movie, there was work, there was school, there were two Halloween parties, there were the scripts, the ending of friendships, and the begining of new ones.

A lot of my entries at the end of high school delt with "Da Puuba Posse." Which I described as: "Me, Danny, Lu, Tommy, Derek, Olly, Max, Alena, Mel, Alisha, Jackie, Matt and Zack."

There was a bit of a split in the group. Lu, Tom, and Olly went one way. Tommy and Olly lived together, and now Tommy and Lu, live together. Lives just pulled us in different directions, we're all still friends, and we still see each other, but not what it once was.

Alena moved away, and I talk to her once or twice a year. Jackie, I talk to... once in a GREAT while on-line...and Mel....two years, haven't heard a thing.

Derek and Alisha dissapaered. Alisha, I've talked to once in a year.. derek I see every so often. This is my fault, I let the friendship here fade I think, I never made a huge effort.

Max went to college, and is doing his thing. Matt and I see each other a good deal. Zack is in the Navy.

Dan went to the Bay and got himself a girl... and then his parents moved. While I still seem him a hell of a lot. It's never quite going to be, that one summer where for about 9 days in a row Danny and I played video games watched movies, and never slept. (wow some things don't change).

And in the end... Collecter's closed.

Three years... and a lot has changed.

These last thee years I've been fighting, searching wishing, and hoping for a place in life. Wishing I had a reason to be here. I've felt like life was one big struggle to make it all fall into place.

And yesterday...and today... it did.

In class I answered questions, at work I served the highest section, and in relationships... I'm... "seeing" someone who... floats along the backs of angels and can calm me down or infuriate me withing 10 seconds...who I can watch a play with...go to a dodger game with..or have her play catch phrase with everyone.

What a ride to come to what I am. These last three years have been.... indescribeable. Sometimes going too fast. Heh, my friend Tommy from Islands, put in his two weeks... and informed me he had been there for a year. A year.... holy crap. He still seems "new" to me.

My first semester in Astronomy with Hal... and Baker in English... seem, like yesterday...but it's been three years.

Life's great as it is... but it's always changing. Just live it all one day at a time.

And enjoy the ride...

-Marteney